So Soon

I feel as though I've been doing way too much adulting recently and it's starting to catch up to me. So I'm taking it back.

I miss hugging my mom and talking with my dad. I miss hanging out with my sisters and having nothing better to do than watch Blue Crush on the couch on a summer afternoon. I wish I could go back to watching Power Rangers and Sailor Moon, playing Scotsy Order Hotel, eating Little Debbie snack cakes every day without thoughts of calories or diabetes, and generally only having two responsibilities: go to school and come home.

"Wish in one hand, shit in the other; see which one fills up faster."

Thanks, Dad. I shall have to do that.

Now it's bills, job security, irritating exes, back fat, and moving. Where did the time go?

"How did it get so late so soon?
It's night before it's afternoon.
December is here before it's June.
My goodness how the time has flewn.
How did it get so late so soon?"
- Dr. Seuss

How did it, Theodore?

I can't help but have this feeling that I haven't actually accomplished anything yet. "Most people live and die without moving anything more than the dirt it takes to bury them." - Supernatural

So what have I accomplished in my quarter of a century Earth?
  • I graduated from Fairhope High School (not really an accomplishment since I know complete idiots with a diploma)
  • I graduated from the University of Chicago with my bachelors in classics cum laude (more of an accomplishment, but lots of people complete undergraduate education)
  • I was accepted into Teach for America as a secondary science teacher
  • I've had professional/career jobs
  • I've been in love
  • I had a cat once
I feel like I should own something, be an expert in something, run/lead something, or just do MORE with my life. I want to open a bookstore, get a PhD in classics or art history, possibly get an MLIS and become a librarian, publish a novel, and get married. Am I trying to rush things or am I not doing enough? 

How did it get so late so soon, indeed.

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